I'm a sucky parent!

All I want to do is put my head on my desk at work and cry.

Last night I discovered that Max has stolen $50 from our household money. We use the Dave Ramsey envelope system, and have money in envelopes in the cabinet for car insurance, weekly tithe, gas, food, kid's commission, etc. Max took all but $3 from the commission envelope. I found out at bedtime, and only had a short conversation - let him know he'll be paying it back for sure, and his dad and I need to calm down and discuss what an appropriate consequence would be.

Only today do I begin to wonder, what on earth he used $50 for? Tim said that when he got out his tithe money for church last Sunday, he had the commission envelope in his hand and it felt full. So, $50 in one week . . . . . for what? Buying a paper for a class, drugs, WHAT???????????????????

Also, I notice that he is emailing the neighborhood girl we don't like. In the old days we'd have called her "fast and loose." I think Sarah, who we do like, is distancing herself from Max. He is going off campus, even though we forbid it and she wouldn't do that. He also goes up to the third floor before the bell rings, a no-no that she won't do, and I think he might have teased her about it or something once. So basically she's seeing behaviors that she doesn't like, so she's not going to be hanging out with him. I hate to see this because she had the potential to be a really good influence on him and they did have a lot of their geeky qualities in common - not an easy thing to find ;)

time will tell, in the meantime, I'll just put my head on my desk and cry again, no, it doesn't seem to be helping, but it's just a shade better then doing nothing.

Ahhhh, big exhale

Ok, life seems to be settling down some, getting back to some sense of normalacy -- although, I did forget a meeting at church (church-church, as opposed to work-church) last night-- oops!

All three kids seem to have adjusted to school. And really, I think all three are loving the fact that they no longer have a sibling at their school. It will be like this for two years, one at the grade school, one at middle school/jr. high, and one in high school. If I could get them all on seperate busses their lives would be utter bliss I'm sure! Ellen has a low grade or two, but nothing to panick about yet, at least she's doing her homework and turning it in. Marci is doing great. Needs to read more and take her AR tests each week, and that's all she is not up to par on. Max, well, what to say about Max and school. The 57% in Spanish is up to a whopping 68%. There is no grade for an oral presentation from last week, I'm hoping it doesn't turn into a zero, as in, didn't do it, like the first oral presentation. Also, the 112% in Science has plummetted to a 42% YIKES!!!!!!! The high grade was the result of only one assignment, he got a 17/24 but then he did 10 pts. extra credit. So now, he has a zero on 2 assignments in there. I'm almost glad, because his counselor called me back last week and seemed very laid back about Max's grades. Mr. Counselor's position was, Gee, Max is doing great in the other classes, and only has a problem in Spanish, I think he's on track. I'll check his grades each week and if we really need to do something down the road we'll see.

OK, DR. MOORE..........whattdayathinkaboutitnow????????????

*SIGH* putting head on desk for a bit *SIGH AGAIN*

In better news, I have a new customer coming today at 3 pm. Not sure what she is bringing but I'm excited to see! I did show my wholecloth from the fair at Quilt Guild yesterday and the other longarmers looked at it and gave me compliments. And by looked at it, I mean they took it in their hands and examined my stitches - yikes! Talk about nervous!! The "really good" lady even said "Wow" and complimented my even stitches. I floated all the way home on a compliment induced high, LOL!! I need to finish rebinding it (had to undo the binding to block the quilt and get it squared up and hanging straight before the guild's quilt show) and tack down the bottom part of the sleeve and it's ready to go off to the show. I've decided to enter it, and to redo the celtic heart trapunto table runner for my other entry. I think I can do that trapunto better, snipping batting closer and snipping less holes in the quilt top. I have the 16 oz. batting that is reccomended for trapunto this time, not two layers of so-so 6 oz. stuff.

And, I did get the linen closet tidied. I feel so in control of everything now, LOL! Unfortunately, the school supplies don't fit in there so I REALLY need to find a good home for them. I stock up when they are on sale at the beginning of the school year and then when the kids need anything, I'm ready. But the box is pretty big, and very in the way around the desk area. Maybe I need to rethink what it is stored in? A wicker hamper with a lid might be ok and could stay on top of the desk?? We'll see.

all for now.

Um, remember the new Rx the Dr. put me on?

OMG!! Can you say.....withdrawl symtoms?????!!!?!?!?!?!?!?

Seems that the end of last week was a bit crazy, and I forgot to take my meds. Not sure when I started forgetting, maybe Wed., maybe Thurs. who knows (I mean really, if I knew I was forgetting, I'd have taken them, so how can I know WHEN I started forgetting?? A whole new Chicken and Egg thing to ponder)

ANYWAY, Friday I was a little jittery at work, and sometimes a spell of dizziness would strike. Saturday, it felt like I might have a bad ear infection coming on - when there was a loud noise, I'd feel like I was losing my balance and going to fall. So I asked Tim to drive for the few errands we had (and I NEVER do that!) and when we got home I went to bed. By nightfall, I was in bed feeling dizzy just watching Ellen walk to me. So my dear auntie Karin looked up my new med when I called and asked her to, and recited some terrible withdrawl symptoms to me. "Brain Shivers" as one person coined it, pretty much described my problem. I took my pill before bed (yeah, the one I should have taken Saturday AM) then got back on track Sunday AM, now I'm mostly better, but do feel a little funny in my head now and then. Sure hope it clears up all the way soon (also hoping nothing permanent was damaged, LOL, I need all the brain cells I can get some days!)

The weekend went well otherwise. Marci enjoyed her trip and we got her home safe and sound. There was lots of fussing and bickering at bedtime last night - a sure sign that kids were tired from a long weekend of not being on a regular schedule! So back to normal we go ;)