just some thinking

I was reading a friend's blog reacently and she spoke of her battle with depression. First, I had no idea that she was fighting this monster everyday, I was suprised. She also has anxiety attacks. Double whammy! She made some good points about how our society still has a stigma attached to Depression, and taking medication to heal it.

So, I did some thinking and replaying the last couple of months and it seems my depression meds aren't working as well as in the past. My Dr. has given me some markers to look for and when they get worse I know I'm in trouble. In reviewing this summer, I could see red flags everywhere. What's really funny is when I mentioned to Tim that I made an appointment to change my Rx because my depression was getting to me again -- he didn't bat an eye. His non-response was a clear "YES IT IS" ;)

The Dr. changed me to a new med. It seems to be working well - hurray! But silly me made the mistake of going off caffiene. After a week of nearly falling asleep at my desk, no inertia to do anything and trouble sleeping at night, and gaining a few pounds even- I decided that I'd rather not be that healthy! For me, it seems caffiene might be an important part of having a good life (and a really important part of those around me enjoying my having my good life, tee hee.)

Now, I'm 3 days back on caffiene and all is right with the world. I've gotten tons accomplished at home and work this week. If feel great and I'm back to losing some weight too. Remind me if I get the crazy notion to be healthy and drink water instead of Diet Coke what a miserable idea that is indeed!!!